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  • Writer's pictureAna Del Castillo

Self-Love Is Not the Answer

I don’t believe self-love is the answer. Not because I don’t believe in love, but because for some of us, we never experienced what it was like to be loved for who we are.

So, someone telling a person to just ‘love themselves’ when they don’t know what that feels like can be crazy-making. It can exacerbate self-loathing.

The only way I have ever made any lasting, long-term difference in how I treat myself (and by extension, how my life and people treat me) is when I meet and accept myself exactly as I am, with no quiet, furious, or desperate hope that it’ll fix what’s ‘wrong with me.’

By figuring out how to give up the illusion of what I am convinced is wrong with me and instead wrestle with the grace of accepting myself exactly as I am.

By flushing myself with ‘rightness.’

The irony is self-acceptance looks and feels a lot like self-love and self-respect. It feels like being home in one’s skin.

But this is a much more emotionally and psychologically doable game for me to play than the trying-to-fix-what’s-wrong-with-me-over-and-over-so-I-can-feel-worthy-of-love, game.

Because the truth is, I can’t TRY to love myself. When I try, I end up exacerbating the inner noise that tells me I am not worthy of love.

I can only learn how to BE loving with myself. As Esther Perel says, love is a verb. So learning the actions of what love feels like to me, in resonance with my system, IS self-love. It’s self-care.

It’s literally what it means to re-parent myself.

So no, I don’t focus on loving myself. I am one of those people that, growing up, never got to know what love looked like or felt like.

But I do now.

I focus on self-acceptance. I focus on listening to myself - really listening to myself. I focus on respecting myself. And I learn ongoing on a body level how to accept myself exactly as I am and exactly as I’m not. That ends up being self-love.

But I’ve never been able to get to that from the front door. I’ve only ever been able to get to it from the bottom up.

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Alieta Lynch
Alieta Lynch
02 de fev. de 2023

This is true for me also. Feels like an unattainable goal but I can get that feeling through other modalities. Thank you

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